Almost 1...almost

Ethan turns 1 next Saturday. I can't believe it. "They" are all right, "they" say that time flies when they are young. The sleepless nights, the early mornings, the few hours I have with him before and after work, the entire weekends I spend with him, none of it is enough. I can't get enough of him! This year has gone so fast. I love my not-so-little-anymore baby/almost toddler so much can't fully express it.

As I began to plan the party for his first birthday I realized how much I want to share it with all of you. All of you went through my journey with me to bring him here and I feel that you should be involved in the celebration of his first year of life. I can't believe I haven't been on here more to post about what is going on in my life. With our move to Albuquerque, I have realized how much I rely on the online friendships I developed through this blog. I have had so very little time to make new friendships in real life. Once Ethan goes to bed, I hop online to see what all of you are up to. I so eagerly await any new post that any of you write! However, over the last few weeks I've had so very little to read. Many have moved on and I know that summer is a busy time, but I can hardly reprimand others for doing exactly what I am guilty of. I've slowly drifted away from this space, but it doesn't mean I need it (and all of you) any less.

I hate to say it, but I'm addicted to comments. It makes me feel heard. But just as I'm a horrible long distance friend, I'm a horrible commenter. I read, I enjoy, I celebrate your families and your accomplishments, I laugh with you, I cry with you, but heaven forbid I acknowledge that I am doing so. I can make all the excuses I want, but overall I really am going to make the effort to be better. I'm going to start with a return to this space. 

So...see you all soon (I promise it won't be months between posts).