Monday, November 26, 2012

He should have said "no"

I'm sort of freaking out here. Not sure why exactly, but it could be that I've googled the phrase "can a cyst on CD3 turn into a pregnancy," and about a million other slight variations, repeatedly since I had my CD3 ultrasound.

I didn't see the RE for the ultrasound on CD3 but rather saw someone who I'm still not sure who he was. I didn't feel comfortable asking all of my questions, but was told that I would receive a call later in the day after they spoke with the RE.

I had asked the guy who did the ultrasound whether or not he thought that a 21.5 mm follicle on CD3 could result in a pregnancy and he said "Maybe." He should have just said "no."

I did get a call from the MA who said that the husband and I should have sex on the days when I experience clear cervical mucous. But she had no further information. She said to call if my period starts or with a positive pregnancy test.

I'm not on birth control pills to control the cyst. I don't know if or when I'll ovulate. I don't know how long it will be before my period.

Help! I'm freaking out!

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Cycle cancelled

I'm still waiting for a call from the RE but in all likelihood this cycle will be canceled. I have a residual follicle/cyst from last cycle on my left ovary at 21 mm.

I believe it was the PA who saw me and did my CD3 ultrasound today, but he really didn't introduce himself. I could tell that something was off the second he panned over to my left ovary [cue scary noises] and I saw the big black blob.

The most positive scenerio is that I actually ovulate this follicle early and have a very short cycle. With my currently thin lining due to menstruation, it is unlikely that anything will happen even if I do ovulate. The most negative scenerio is that the follicle becomes cystic and needs to be drained. In actuality it will likely be something in-between that lingers and needs to be monitored and treated with birth control know, just long enough to make a person crazy.

Depending on the outcome, we may decide to go straight into IVF with the next cycle. I think I have Nate on-board with that idea. Actually I alluded to it on the car ride home until he brought it up on his own, then we high-fived on it after having come to the "mutual" decision to go that route.

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Thanks to Thanksgiving...

AF showed this morning. CD1 is today. Because of the Holiday this Thursday, I will be seen for my CD3 ultrasound on CD2. Meaning that I miss a half day of work, go back in to work for the afternoon and then have a 4 day weekend.

It makes this work week reeeeeeeeealy short...and I like it.

Side note: I think that I'm going to have to start posting other stuff on here. This infertility shit is getting really old.

Sunday, November 18, 2012


I missed my FMU yesterday because we had no pregnancy tests at home. So we went to the store and got a two the way, what a rip off, tests from the store are so expensive.

I tested yesterday afternoon and again first thing this morning just incase...BFN both times...

Nate was very frustrated with this result and for the first time he was the one throwing around the what-ifs. You know, what if this never happens? What will we do?

We're ok, just waiting for AF. Hopefully it doesn't make our next cycle interfere with Thanksgiving this Thursday. It will be nice to have a 4 day weekend though.

Anybody have big plans for the holiday...(any plans for just a regular Thursday for those of you who do not live in the US)?


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Monday, November 12, 2012

Still here, still waiting

It's been more than a week since my IUI, but I promised my husband that we wouldn't test until the day that the Dr. said...which is this coming Saturday. A true 2 week wait.

Since I didn't test out the trigger shot, I'm now worried that if we test earlier, there could be a false positive, and thus we continue to wait.

It's OK though, I'm resigned to wait at this point, I mean what difference does a couple days make...

I'm afraid to jinx it but I do feel very positive about this cycle. Maybe it's just the knowledge of actually having had a chance this cycle, because I'm definitely not having any outward noticeable signs. Maybe it is the knowledge that we can finally try, cycle after cycle without waiting, until this finally works.

Other than continuing to wait, nothing special is going on here.

Saturday, November 3, 2012

An uneventful IUI

We had our IUI this morning, and it was uneventful...just like I like for things to be (finally...right?!?!)

I shouldn't say that it was totally uneventful though, because they did a sperm count on the sample (unlike our first 3 IUIs) and we finally got good news...or someone else's sperm (just kidding). The count was up to 225 million post wash in this sample. All previous semen analysis (not done during IUIs) have shown a maximum of 60 million without washing. It looks like the recent issue that my husband had, for lack of a better phrase, "cleared out the pipes!"

I finally have the chance to feel excited and like we might be successful. Which means that, even though we are at the start of the 2 week wait, my mind has had the chance to picture what it might be like to be pregnant, what our guest room might look like as a nursery, and how our six dogs will react to me getting up in the middle of the night to take care of our child.

I am exhausted though, I've had three long days in a row where I had to get up at 5 AM and then be functional and productive all day, so today I took a nap when we got home...a 4 hour nap.  But now that I'm awake, I need to find things to occupy my time and my mind during this 2 week wait. Since I spend a portion of each day in the blogosphere, that means I need all of you guys to write some frequent posts so that I have something to do!

We will be doing a pregnancy test if AF doesn't show by 14 dpo, not having a beta unless the at home test is positive.

Thursday, November 1, 2012

And we are a go!

I had my follicle scan today.

But only after a scary GPS experience where I was directed to go into Mexico as a "shortcut" to the RE's office...oh how inaccurate "shortcut" is. I was only using the GPS to make sure that I could get to the appointment on time in morning traffic. Long story short, I didn't know that I was on the bridge to Mexico until it was too late to take another exit, I then had to make a 3 point turn at the border patrol crossing in front of about 20 border patrol agents and 100+ cars. Mind you I wasn't really that far off course, you can see into Mexico for the last 10 miles of the drive as you drive along the highway to the office.

Anyway, I got to the office on time, but was locked out because apparently the knob gets hit easily by patients. What doesn't go wrong with my appointments?

I was finally seen for my scan, where I was advised that a resident would be doing the scan. OK, fine, they need to learn, I get it...but he put old Wandy in and proceeded to futz around like he didn't kow what he was looking at.  Even I knew when he was looking at my uterus. Anyhow, the RE came in and in 2 minutes or less, measured my uterus and follicles.

Uterus: 8.3 mm and triple-striped
Follicles: Righty- a few, but all 13 mm or less, Lefty- 21.5 mm, 14 mm, 13, mm

I was advised to take one vial of Meno.pur tonight and do my trigger tomorrow at 5 pm for a Saturday morning IUI. Yay for a Saturday appointment and not taking another day off work!

It looks like I will be doing my trigger shot myself somehow as I will be working at the office that is one hour away from where I live. (it does have to be intramuscular, so a hip/butt injection)