That's just not what you want to hear when going into any medical procedure.
After preparing H's semen/sperm yesterday, Lulu and Monica came in to do the IUI. They said that H's volume/count/motility were "particularly horrible" and that his previous SAs were "deceivingly optimistic". My brain shut down after that.... I didn't catch any numbers but I did hear "might be sufficient".
However, She still went ahead with the IUI and let me tell you, the internet and you guys lie!!!! It was painful!!! She said it was so bad because I had a little stenosis (narrowing) of the cervix. Which Dr. Google tells me can be a result of the cryosurgery. She said that she had to push the catheter to get it past this point, but that it should open it up a bit.
She too noticed my EWCM and said that it looked great and that H and I should have sex for the next two days to improve our odds. That was not about to happen last night though. I bled and bled on the ride home. I was only given a pantyliner and bled through it onto my underwear, pants and carseat. It was really as heavy as a period flow. Since I was driving through the desert, there was nowhere to stop. The procedure was done around 4:00 PM and the bleeding slowed around 8-9 PM and the cramping stopped at about 10:00. This morning it is about gone.
Even though she said that we still had a small chance of being successful with this cycle, yesterday was the first time I really got upset about the whole thing and I blew up at H when he got home last night. I really just freaked out on him out of frustration. I have to monitor my cycle, get jabbed with needles and go through a painful procedure because of him. Yet he does nothing to improve things.
I'd like for him to:
1. Lay off the painkillers, he's had multiple joint surgeries including both shoulders and total ankle reconstruction and I understand that he's in pain but he just uses them occassionally, I think he could quit altogether
2. He needs to back off on the exercise. He exercises too much which I think aggrivates the problems with his joints and that much running can't be good for the boys especially because of the vericocele. Also, because of exercising, he takes multiple workout supplements and I'm not sure that some of the side effects of those supplements couldn't be contributing to the problems.
3. Quit drinking altogether. Apparently, H missed his college phase because he was in the military, but still being in the military turned him into quite the drinker. He doesn't drink often, but when he does, he is incapable of having just one or two beers.
He has yet to really change his lifestyle since finding out his numbers were low, I think we were both hopeful that with a little assistance things would be ok and that he wouldn't need to.
I'm hoping that H's numbers were low because of the amount of alcohol he consumed last night and not for any other reason. He told me that our neighbor's kidnapped him and forced him to drink...12 beers...that's right, I said 12! It's not exactly his fault because neither he nor I thought about the effects that it could have had on today's procedure. He says he's kicking the habit for the next month as well as doing a few other things to improve our odds. He said that he feels like he has to live someone else's life to be able to get me pregnant, and though I don't think this will kill him, he sure acts like it will.
Sorry this turned out to be a bit of a rambling post. Needless to say, I'm not feeling real positive about this cycle.