So close...

...but still an 8 hour drive away.

We plan to drive to Las Vegas for out FET tomorrow and leave in the middle of the night. Hopefully Ethan and I can sleep a bit in the car. Last time he was awake darn near the whole ride! 

I got my transfer time tomorrow of 12:30 pm pacific time. Any prayers, hopes, or wishes are appreciated. The message that was left also gave us info about consuming 1 liter of water just prior to the appointment, that they will give me a Valium prior to the procedure and to have sex the night before. Not only will that be hard to do given the fact that we will be driving in the middle of the night, but we will have a toddler with us! Maybe the afternoon before will suffice! But also, why?!?!? I don't understand how this can or will help.

I've been pretty calm about this whole thing. It's not that I think it has a greater chance of working than it did last time, but having been successful once does ease my mind a bit. Also, it's not that I already have a child and a second is not wanted, necessary or important because I have always and desperately wanted a large family. I think it is just easier because I've done it before and know what to expect which allows me to both feel collected about it and also appear collected. Hopefully I can continue to keep it together for the next 24 hours or so.